We are living in a little geek circus and we are blogging in there with zero impact. That is our illusion.
Our main audience are we, listening to ourselves, to some few "EU geeks" (quote from Jon) - and we know this, as Kosmopolit pointed out on Twitter and Stephen confirmed on Th!nk today.
Mostly, it feels like discussing with friends or colleagues.
But sometimes, unexpectedly, somebody listens into your discussions and takes up what you spoke about, telling it to others. Making an issue out of it. And then the "zero impact" story doesn't work anymore. Because you move from "zero" to "close to zero".
It's not that it is completely unwanted, but it's still somehow disturbing.
People use your words for science (scroll down to 23 April). Your criticism develops into constructive approaches. People get happy or angry because you write about their "babies", like a piece of legislation or a campaign.
And you start to think: Isn't that a bit too much? I just..
I mostly write as if I was writing for me, as if I was just structuring my thoughts on certain things I am interested in or passionate about and then putting them on digital paper. Without particular attention to impact.
And in a way that is what seems to unite most EU bloggers: You are passionate for something that most people don't care for, and you write as if you were among yourselves, geeks talking to geeks about geekish things.
Geeks running in circles in the geek circus.
But then, from time to time, you wake up, realising that you actually have an audience in your circus, and that the children in this audience cry:
"Look mummy, there is a geek. And he's blogging!"
And you feel naked like the emperor. With an audience that reacts to what you do. If you want it or not.
Because for those who come to the circus, how few they may be, you are still the attraction: The EU geek.